Resolution & more Resolutions....

Again- I have not kept to my own promise of updatin my blog more often but never mind- let's start again in the month of October!

So far throughout the month of September- things has been pretty normal. Some ups and PrEtTy BiG downs... but what I can say is that most has been pretty much solved. Well, only time can tell! So I shall just have to be patient and see.. I am pretty glad that in that month itself- I got to meet up wit my ex-colleauges for some Buka Puasa treats! We got to exchange news and really got to see how much things has changed for some. One thing's for sure- it's all about babies n motherhood for some! :) It's interesting to see how some 'mummies' are now so knowledgeable about such topic- I think being a mummy really changes someone- to be extra thoughtful, loving and attention to details! One whimper and they'll know what their precious wants! Gee-- talk bout super powers! hee hee...

To think of what I have accomplished last month~ urm....NONE! haha! Well, I still do not have that satisfactory fulfillment done! Still searching I can say... Wonder when I'll discover it. I did get a tinge of it though during my training the other day ( wat I can say is tat- Aargh!!!). We were asked to come up with a marketing proposal of any chosen product. Thinkin that it was a hassle at first, I started off kinda grumpily. Really, I was wonderin--"what the..." How can we think of a marketing proposal off hand just like that?! However after doin it, I actually felt better- It was like I had an aim at tat moment- as if I was really goin to market the product! haha! But of course it was all a training but it actually made me feel like I had an objective! For those who knows me, you'll be able to guess what my "product" was.... for now, I hope I'll pluck up the courage and the mind to give it more thought as to how it can turn into a reality in future! As for now, what do I look forward to this month... Hmm... work, work n more work?!!! Aargh.. which is true! I am not lying.. THis month is the time for hard labour! What I can disclose is that- It's work every weekend of this month! Which leaves only this weekend free for me... Wonder what to do.... Oh, n this month's resolution- to eat less! heehee.... isn't tat the same every month?! :p

Exhaustion....

As opposed to the previous blog tat i posted which is of food..this is a more depressin one... :) Really tired and exhausted these 2 weeks. Well, my buddy and I has been working non-stop for the past 2 weeks.... Wakin up early, doin labour work.... hehe! but there are fun moments of it ler! Just tat, sometimes i wonder how do ppl cope with exhaustion? There are a few whom i see who are like robots- day in and out, doin their job relentlessly... Should i say those are the dedicated few? But how do they find time for themselves? Or are those the ones who do not know when to say "NO" as what i have posed in earlier post- about the Power- Oprah talk...?

Well, there are good and bad in saying no ler... As for me, I still have to learn to say "NO"! haha... which is why, i ended up in this exhaustion stage. But not tat we (my buddy and I), have much choice! At least last weekend was a better one, more fun i should say... though we have our tired moments! Urmm.....arms and legs shaking, thigh ache (according to my bud)! haha!!!! Seems as though we just went to BEijing Olympics for a race and back!

However, lookin on the bright side- at least we got to spend a couple of free hours at the mall- lunch, tea and dinner... enjoying the various choices that we have for food(which was really plenty! Diff to chose frm!), the company (wat else can i say) and ALSO ........ the things tat we got to purchase there! ( which is by the way, more than wat we earned for a day's work) sigh..... women and shoppin centres!!!!!! Well, I guess then it's back to square one!

My Appetite is My Shepherd

My appetite is my shepherd; I always want.

It maketh me to sit down and stuffeth myself.

It leadeth me to my refrigerator repeatedly.

It leadeth me in the path of Burger King for a Whopper.

It destroyeth my shape.

Yea, though I knoweth I gaineth,

I will not stop eating,

for the food tasteth so good.

The ice cream and the cookies they comfort me.

When the table is spread before me,

it exciteth me,

forI knoweth that I soon shall diggeth in.

As I filleth my plate continuously,

my clothesrunneth smaller.

Surely bulges and pudgies shall follow me

all the days of my life

and I shall be "pleasingly plump" forever.

hee hee...... :p

Me Buddy!

Sadz today cos my buddy left her ‘home’ here and will only return after a month. It came as a sudden news, surprising her as well as myself… How could it be? Separation for us? How can they be so cruel? Don’t they “feel” for others? How lonely both of us will feel as now we are far apart from each other…………………………

He he….. So drama manz! Hee hee….But it’s true ler, this is something that happened at work. My buddy , u will un when u read this! Well, am really kinda sad as I’ll be losing a lunch partner, gossip partner, goin- home-at-the same-time partner! Hehe! Cos we finish everything bout the same time! Now it’s like so quiet here…… no msn-ing wit u somemore! (psst--- not tat we do tat all the time ya :p)

He he…. Well, will definitely miss u lotsa while ur there. Hopefully u will look at the brighter side of things as I will too over here (at least I hope to lose some weight without u here, as my partner in crime when it comes to food!) Hee Hee! I am pretty sure that you’ll meet great ‘one- month colleagues’ there! (notice that I mentioned , ‘one month colleagues’?!) he he…SO dun go wishing you’ll stay there longer!

So, will await patiently for u to be back here once ur done so to put on weight again!
Till then, will try to lose more first !!!!

Hugzz........

Coffee talk.....

Well am seated at my cubicle now, dreaming slightly as am feeling sleepy at the moment! :P Thinking about how my weekend was spent last week and now sad as I’m also thinking about how my coming weekend will be like…..Oops, make it 2 weekends! Well, my colleague and I would have to work on a roadshow during that period of time . * Gloomliness sets in*…. Actually feelin envious towards ppl whom in know who will have a GREAT time… hmm….wonder wat my bf, 'Zudo', will be doing at that time! Haha! 2 weekends free of me..!

Well, I guess he will surely be planning ahead though I think he does pretend to not remember tat I have work on the weekend so to make me unsuspicious! Hehe! He’ll most probably be planning nite- outs wit his pal, D, whom both now hang out almost daily. Ahem…. I always call them “lovers”, even D admits! Haha! I do question whether they are to be trusted when they’re out together at times?! But come to think of it, they’re always at the same old hang-out place. So no worries! :p

I have questioned myself before- well as all gals do- to trust ur partner or not when they’re out roaming at nite! Haha- I used the word “roaming”(U ppl know what I mean)!!! :P Well, depends lor… can’t think bout tat too much because you may go bonkers! I think to then leave it to time- Time will tell…especially someone’s character. It will be difficult to contain ur own true intention or feeling for long therefore the true color will slowly seep out. Luckily 'Zudo' can still be considered to be his normal self except for the occasional hiccups that happens along the way.

Now, what I mean by hiccups here may not be something that is itsy bitsy, it can also mean huge issues. Most importantly I think is to get issues(hiccups) resolved and not leave it at mid-air .Everything must have an end to the solution, do not ever spite ppl off! Sometimes I do tat ler..hehe! But then it’s always in return! Ha ha ha…. So now, I think “someone” can get to have their revenge as ………Sobs…have got to work during the weekends! Sigh…

Suddenly I have this song in my mind----I think it's really sweet and tweet! :p Would luv to dedicate this to all "quarelling" lovers and of cos, to 'Zudo'! hehe....

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you

Love is more than just a game for two

Two in love can make it

Take my heart and please don't break it

Love was made for me and you

p/s: hope tat it would go according to the lyrics....

Retreat....

(This was written earlier but posted later...)

Just came back frm my company’s retreat-a team building event which lasted for 3 days at Selesa Hillhomes. Well, I was slightly skeptical at start as I was also feeling down that my pal, Kristy was not attending. Instead she was sent to JB for another road show… The *Gloom* feeling went through me as the day for the Retreat approached…Me alone with ppl whom I do not really know without my pal? Was really torturous as I was awaiting the day to come… haha… Think I sound like a Drama Queen now..


Anyway, the day finally came and boarded the bus at 8 smthing (was the last one to arrive smore! He he….) Tot that I could actually continue my sleep on the bus BuT… the game started---a Treasure Hunt along the way till we reach our destination! Gosh…was so sleepy but surprisingly, it was pretty fun as we looked for clues all the way, ended up at KFC, lemang stalls before the last clue was found near the swimming pool. As for the rest of the trip, I have to say tat it was interesting as we never knew what was to happen next. Everything was hushed up till we do it.. So I got to build a bridge project, logo design project, a skit, night water-gun game, yoga, being auctioned off, sarong football, celebrity nite, statue dancing, pole-balancing and of course talks frm directors! Wow- pretty jam-packed retreat! But it was all good… I found myself enjoying the activities with some new- found friends..(not many ler…a handful! Hee hee..)


And of course in all team- building camps (though this was my first) there’s bound to be feedback time at the end of every session. Believe me, I was so terrified that I would be chosen! Haha… tried to hide behind ppl and all. Phew…luckily I was not selected. However, I do have answers ready in my mind ady just in case…”Always be prepared”! Most interesting was that everyone has a so-called “sugar cube” where it was actually envelopes stuck on the walls around the room. Everyone has their own and what it actually was for- whenever we have anything to say to the other person, we can write it in a piece of paper then deposit in that person’s sugar cube! Be it good or bad messages…of cos, no one was mean, I think! Well, I had 3 notes in mine…Still tryin to figure out who wrote them- wouldn’t u like to know wat was mentioned bout me? Hehe….. Good stuff la of cos!

After the whole thing… I felt tat I had a good experience and was surprised tat I had not much time to think of how lonely I was without my buddy..(though still wished she was there, would b so much more Fun! ) I guess, when I prepped myself up for the whole trip, it kinda gave me more confidence and to look at the whole thing with more light. Perhaps we must always….. ‘Give yourself a chance as well as to others’…..

New environment...

Hmmm..it's soon to be a month here ady at my new work place... Time passes Sooo Fast! : ) Not too sure how I'm feeling at the moment as everyone usually asks _ "Hey, how's ur new job?" Urm....kinda difficult to answer as everything is still new to me... Trying to fit in lor?! Hee hee.... Now I feel like a newborn as I have to re-learn most of the things here again! Of course, there seems to be less stress but then at times, feel bored..Hehe! Really Billie Jean's sister- Lo Lei Jean!

Definitely was used to the fast-pace environment previously where there's not much time for a breather frm the start of morning till nite. Phew....those were the days! But there are proud achievements to be mentioned ler. One should never ever think he or she has wasted time in whatever that they have done. Instead to use whatever strengths that they have and turn it into their positive attributions in new-found work. He he... like so deep manz....

Well, I happened to be watching Oprah yday (one of my fav talk shows), and the topic was about "Put your strengths to work". It's written by this guy called Marcus Buckingham (Terrific name, rite?) I found it kinda motivating. It was as the title suggests- "to put your strenghts back into ur work!"

The show actually broadcasts several women who were really tired with their work-life and felt unappreciated. In some way, I think all of us do feel that way- am not referring it to gals only but guys too! The author actually asks us-

1. How to turn yourself around?
2. Do we just sit there and focus on our sad complaints?
- That my bf/hubby/boss dun appreciate me.
- That I've not been doin anything for myself. Everything that I do is always for them, them, them...
3. When do I stop saying "YES" to everything? How about my "NO's"?

Hmm..all in all, I think there were several good points highlighted in the show. For example, I do think sayin "NO" is kinda hard to do.. it's like u will disappoint someone. But on the other hand, u'll feel shitty bout sayin yes as it may turn out to be somethin tat ur really reluctantant to do. So how ar, that's where our "YES" comes in lo... Just to please someone, eager to get an approving nod from someone, so to belong in a group... Sigh.. others would either "see" you as being really helpful or someone that they can always dump their load on!

Then its back to us again, choose then- whether u want be "good" to yourself or u "really feel good" putting others ahead of u first? This can be sometimes confused with selfishness... bear in mind, i do think that most people do find themselves as selfish if they show that they care for themselves first. I guess we should stop looking at ourselves in that manner.......

Why not look at it as making yourself happier first before you can do unto others?

Hugz......